staying in hotels out of seoul but not for holidays..but rather for working well thats the only way i was going to sleep last night..does he have insomnia? possibly a mild case in the making..you can do some crazzy days feeling tired...2hrs of sleep and morning runs and 16hrs away from home and then again the next day...same

working is pretty fun isn't it? ya well somebody has to be busy...are my eyes getting slanted? Nolan stop sleeping..my eyes are actually open..ricies but subway sleeping can be beautiful until you miss your stop..then well ...ya

teaching with Bruce again and Coex malls...could you get that camera out of my face for a second..cheers...classes and images and new schools,,,etoos.com who?

so china has had time to sink in and well I could rave on about random stories forever but truth is I'm too busy and can't be bothered...don't have the right pics to explain the ricies..lets just say massages ( Brett sit down and stop dancing...your paying good money for that..or so we found out..whoops) and noribongs turned bad or worse..take your pick...or was it korean speaking turned bad..both

the great wall more like the great ricies..actually na,,,china was pretty cool and the great wall was still pretty amazing..they build it with hands and rice..thats amazing..its like 3,700miles or something..but depends which internet site you visit...hah

christmas vanishes, Eminem back with Kim and 2006 is on..dreams and goals that are getting polished and not to mention runs... welll god bless..I'm sorry...Koreean music

Can't quite grasp Beijing yet.....but there are some stories to be shared on that topic another day. I have to let it all sink in and then I can put something together...the photos are a sneak peek...but can also be misleading ... they don't include any of the ricies for obvious reasons....

But being back in Seoul is ranking pretty high up there as well......New years was fun and so was China but can't say I’m not happy to be back in Seoul.

I covered the short loop in record time today...19:38  that’s a huge pb by over a     1m 30s  ...well I guess you could say that the trip didn't slow him down or should I say the fries.....Will there be races anytime soon here...is quite debatable....track, road or marathon?

Tea houses and Noribongs that cost abit and massages and airports + taxis...actually taxis were the real bargain of the trip...were they?

Some pics and mixed feelings in 310 here

Pa poo da

Dookie cranked up and its not Grade 5 anymore....punk has been on the back burners thats forsure!!!

Is he feeling abit of energy heading into Beijing here?...well it is just under two weeks here and then who knows what could happen there? All I know is there is gonna be Great Walls, best friends, new countries and probably 151 will make an appearance or 3...settle down Osaka

Polished 8miles today and speaking of eminem month...I'm into his new song here... What about Green day and Eminem playing in Seoul...would be pretty crazzy..heaps of asians packed out in a coliseum and some white guys chucked in for fun.

I'm quilty of sinking into a bit of a pattern here...but I'm pretty into it or something .....seem to be getting alot done..what is driving me......if the fire is hot enough it will burn anything.....

hairstyles have calmed down abit here and so have moods....well stages and time is passing so what will be next or is this the new Nolan here? its all pretty debatable.... and so is the next song on the IPOD.... how long will the asia stint last?...well I'm going to have to wait and see what GOD  thinks is the next chapter in my book

Christmas is around the corner here and I'm not sure I'm ready for it...well you're not..you have shopping to do and address' to find...so get moving on Sunday here you monkey...no excuses like you don't have any money this year....whoops....

"Nolan Hello Kitty again"...sorry babe thought you liked it "i did when I was 8...I'm 17 now"...whoops time is flying by lilly try and understand...ricies

Here... Mel thought you could use this...."what is it?" open it up silly...."another new Enya cd"...you already have one?..."ya dad bought it for me"...ya thats where I got the idea from...actually Dad and I haven't talked in ages...so ricies again...

Hey dave....I know you haven't been in the picture that much lately but I was still thinking of you..." sunblock and a motorbike lock?"  well you don't want to burn those legs and well if you don't want the lock I'm sure Mel could use another one....hahaha

Mom and Carl I didn't forget about you guys....mom kisses me..."thanks bud" I was going to get you guys some videos...but I didn't know which ones you were into these days ( big fat greek was sold out) so I decided to renew your library membership for the next 3 years...hahah

Ryan I'm not sure how your doing these days with stomachs and feet and I know you were looking for wheels so I bought you a wheel chair..... Thanks for the pop can lids Greg!..not sure where I'm going with that one

Hey Nolan thats ok you didn't get me anything, I understand its hard to find time these days..."But actually I did Dad I took my web cam back that you gave me in 2002 and bought you the same one..you probably didn't even notice...don't worry i won't take it personally scally wag...btw Merry Christmas and nice light show my the Engineer buddies

Nolan another Tennis racket and more Korean study books..."well i know how you have been breaking alot of strings lately Brett and you're always asking to borrow my Korean books on the subway...btw there is another box of coco puffs under the sink that have your name on them...

is that hows its going to be?...well Id have to go home for Christmas wouldn't I....he won't...

 yep

....what drives us throughout the days and years of our lives?

Is it fear of failure?

Is it because someone else expects us to?

Is it because we find satisfaction at the end of the day, month or year in that we made progress in our life?

How do people deal with pain and distress in their lives?

Some people like to drink/party or take drugs, some people like to eat chocolate or go on eating binges, some don't eat at all and get sick...some people go under the covers and don't talk or socialize for months at a time, others find great satisfaction in taking out pain and  melancholy with two feet and a heart beat...once we get to a point when we can't push ourselves anymore is that when we can come to terms with something or is that just like a drug as well...a temporary high that will end?...you Some people run away and try and forget about the past rather than coming to terms with it..facing up.....not realising that it will be with them everystep of the way until they confront it!

Mourning....

why can some days of our lives seem so hard and others feel like we made it to heaven alittle premature

The people who love the most hurt the most as well. They have made their heart too big and vunerable for pain to sneak into.

Hearts are like any other part of the body..once broken they too will fix themselves over time

A day passes we learned something new, saved another dollar, met someone new, got something we wanted to do done, its closer to Christmas or Beijing......is time always on our side?

After someone has lost someones believe and trust they tend to build their shell up harder than before and less suspectable for pain and agony to sneak into. They close up abig part of their past in fear of being hurt again

Love is ..........

I asked my students to tell me what love was the other day

Elizabeth...Love is reality

Lucia....Love is Dangerous

Andrea... Love is a balloon (really high and full but can burst at anytime)

James....Love is necessary

Love is one of those things that we can't get away from just like money...they seem to find their way into everything...one of them seems to sneak their nose into all parts of our lives...sometimes the two directly affect eachother.

Fear and doubt if used properely can be our greatest motivator.

Never underestimate yourself...others already do enough of that for us!

So everything has changed pretty much over night. I had an amazing night last week and then woke up the next morning and knew everything was going to be different. It hasn't dissapointed!

Do we all get to a point in our lives or for some like myself more than a few when we recognize that were not living the way we want and we want to change it.  Well I came to terms with it the other day and it has been getting more clear lately.

I woke up on Sunday morning and felt pretty rejuvenated like I just woke up after a long winter and the sun was shining, well it hasn't stopped since....goals and perspectives have changed as well. But on the contrary winter is creeping along with the cold and dark days but my thoughts aren't. 

Life can get too comfortable and cushy at times and its easy to get sucked into a pattern or rountine that were not happy with or has room for refinement or productiveness. I relalized mine the other day. It has been sitting there the last 3 months but haven't quite being able to grasp it for various reasons.

I went to the track the other day and ran 15 outside  laps and felt the most alive I have in months.

I sat in a coffee shop alone today for 2hrs and did some serious thinking with the help of some trance but things were pretty clear and my thoughts weren't cluttered for the 1st time in months....I wouldn't say I was buzzing it was more a feeling of honesty in reality sinking in hard and I loved it. I wrote 7days of journals and didn't have any trouble reminiscing the days...The tunnel was cleared and flowing it was. Nothing like a run across the Han river with deja vu of winter 2003..did this distracted individual really run outside everyday that winter with some days exceding -35'C?... consistency and SiSu  are words I haven't thought alot about recently but they  have remerged along with the cold weather here.

Whats happening everyday all around we can only control to a certain extend but what we can alter is not how our day unfolds but rather the attitude in which we want to approach the day no matter how it unfolds. Sometimes it really blows one away that they don't have to live their live the way others expect or want them to.

tomorrow is a new day and a new person will be born

Is life worth living without a dream?  We all need dreams and goals to get us through the days and years. If they are big and take years to achieve or rather 5 mins is insignificant, they are all important!

Can you truly be satisfied living someone elses dream? NO, If you can be satisfied then it isn't someone elses dream but rather your own!

What is your potenial?  More than you'll ever know

Will you ever fulfill it? If your not worried about going to far then yes you will! "The only people who realise their potenial are those who risk going all the way"

Can anyone do anything?  Yes, the people who don't just have nobody to tell them they can or give them the push they needed or they would rather write it off as impossible rather than putting themself out on a limb!

Or were they never able or had the potenial themselves to begin with?  Potenial has no limits!

Is wanting success selfish? I think if you keep things in perspective and don't let the success take over your life and most of all don't think your better than anyone!!!! You just have different talents and  dreams.

Are we all selfish? I do believe we are all selfish , in that everything we do or say positive for someone else is a way of feeling good about ourselves..... What? Well when do we feel the best about ourselves? How about after giving someone a present or donating money to a charity.... so by saying that is being selfish a bad thing....at times not at all!

How do we find true happiness? I believe balance is number 1 and I believe in our lives we will find our greatest happiness using the gifts that god gave us and making the most of them.

Are their rules in being in LOVE? just being true to yourself always

If I could describe the feeling I got when I hung up that phone today and put it into words...wel 'll I'm going to try here....  lets just say abit of Ferry Corsten- Galaxia was cranked up and then shorts and they were special shorts well sort of...he bought them in New York and won Journal games in them in Grade 10....by the way... what is the record for the most  Journal games titles...In 7 tries I have 6 titles and one runner up...not that anyone is counting!!!!

well anyway american shorts and singlets and moods...Hey Brett can I borrow 40'000w..."why whats up"? I just need some money to fix the hole in the roof....."Nolan get down from there"   Well he starts off pretty brisk and it didn't stop there...pushing it on the way out.  sorry kids but your gonna have to do abit better if you wanna run with me..you weren't the only one to go out to fast GEB (62:03... 1/2) I wasn't exactally sprinting in...but it wasn't my legs... it was more my lungs and just a shock to be out running again...I've only done a handful of runs since being back in Korea a notable 51.2 400m timetrial and a few other random hard efforts... but the feeling I got crossing the bridge crashing two love birds snuggled up and the the Han river and about a million cars passed me (not all 22 of them...there are some people in this city or something)...honks that couldn't really be heard..... and car fumes that couldn't stop me either...he got caught up on a few crosses with cars but....  he finished the run strong  22:03cr and pb.. no world record...same as Haile! 

but then runs around blocks with no shirts and yelling up to roommates....elevators with no shirts and people....talking to yourself in the apartment for 20mins while Brett is hoping to sleep and then feeds... he had moods today and Brett took that not me MRs. dawber...he has Romanza also..but I think you forgot... but like Job interviews gone bad...phone talks gone bad....next contacts....but runs didn't... do they ever...a certain run in at New Brighton beach might stand out for a few...good yans the other day kangers and welcome Brett.....going solo in Seoul is over for the time being......Beijing New Years...will they?

what happened on that phone call by the way?

what is the big deal with confidence and why do some people have so much and others are struggling just to get their name out wondering why they missed out or something. Well we're all living in this box until we realise that were not and then here we are... "obstacles are the things we see when we take our eyes off our goals"

is it possible to teach confidence...well yes anything is possible Nolan you clown....ok I'm listening or something

well one thing I've learned about being in Korea is that Koreans love to talk the talk and then the next day ????  like drinking in this country is pretty huge real heaps I mean like 7 days a week and well ya there is alot of it going on here...alot of it I have the chance to witness 1st hand...pamela or wristina...ricies   anyway more serious here...like drinking is of course  a way of releaving stress but really in turn most of the time creates more...much more...? who would tend to agreee with me?  ok so my moms hand is up and my dads was up but now he put it down ..did he?...anyway like you had a long week or exams or life just isn't getting you places or your life is too hard and seems like there is no way out or how about Asia.... everybody is just so damn busy and has no time for families or friends so when they do get the chance they want to drink it away..... (then once the drinking begins...the talk starts of changing lives and big hopes and money and next min...heads are huge if they weren't already before...)

guess what you wake up no closer to your dreams but have a nasty head ache and are probaby tired or else have wasted half of your day sleeping!  Confidence you gain when your drinking isn't really yours...if you get layed or get a hot date well don't thank yourself but rather the poison sitting next to you or in your stomach...

anyway ...saying that he still enjoys drinking from time to time...does he?

so if you don't get your confidence from drinking where does it come from then?  well 1st of all lets clear our heads and think straight here...hope you didn't drink last night! Well everybody has to discover their own confidence and some people may discover theirs quicker and some people may never quite find all of it...well just listen to your heart and block out the stuff that isn't bringing you in the right direction

saying this       I've grown up with my fair shair of love but know people who haven't and all I can say is that I belive in you even if you don't yet!   Seen the "Conte of Monte Cristo"...well God belives in you as well even if you don't believe or have faith in him!... change can be hard but the hardest thing I thing would be too look back on a life of regret or chances that we didn't take....."the only real regrets we'll have when its all said and done is the chances that we didn't take"   .......or what about this "we'll never truly know what were capable of until we go to far" or "dreams are the limits of our success"  

where are you going with all of this...well if you don't know by now don't give up....

never give up...its never to late for anything!!!

He had his birthday and it was fun let me tell you about it...well it started off with lunch dates in the the world trade center and it wasn't sept 11 so nothing to worry about right..well actually moods went pretty around in circles and just because we were on the top floor doesn't mean the resturant was spinning... spinning ricies....turn everlong down for a second so I can think here...done...thanks  well after that taught for 4 hrs in bongchon by the way thats on the green line which is line 2 but I know you would have answered that right on the test anyway Brett...then taxies to Bruce's and chilled out before going partying after that...amazing nights how do you spell the understatement of the century talks and then well the rest is too much to right so he'll leave it at that...

Panama well apparently someone he knows is there and its not God ..because the last time I heard from him was on the subway today when someone gave me a flyer with jeses and crosses on it but I'm still praying before bed Mom don't worry about that too much...by the way my e-mail is momemailme@nolanfyfe.com or imisslilly@nolanfyfe.com back to grade 8 joeundies@hotmail.com ....   but enough about e-mail adresses the real reson I wrote this update is too inform you that bekele is athlete of the year and he didn't even jump over 5m's in the womens pole vault..ricies

Bretts going to NZ end of the month and Ryans in Panama, gregs in mexico or is it cuba this week...wheres nOlan...lost in seoul..found him thats not Nolan you idot thats james..ricies..  see you guys at WHO.A.U tomorrow in Gangnam...line 2 right bRett stn #..abit more studying ricies..anyway time is 7:30- to 10:30 you'll find his chingoo there with him..hopefully they aren't wearing name tags and sweeping the floor I know its a holiday Brett but put your badger payslip away.. I'm not so sure if they do time and half here..hahah

well hes lost like well not really ...wait...I see him..is that him?..ricies  but like thinking and ya bruce your always good for a talk but wait its your b-day tomorrow and I can't talk about alot of stuff with you becuase you wouldn't understand and "hey james go play nintendo I'm busy or something"...(hows your face looking for tomorrow?..good..U? ya good...well you never know what can happen over night...don't say that...well don't say that out loud anyway...hahah that was pretty funny ....more funny that I actually typed it though...everlong one more time and then hes done well here it gos....bottled water huh...brett shh I'm almost done here

sleeping on yo mats and straight backs or is that just the girls here? well not everybody  has abcdddddd's jokes korean girls..there a re some cute girls real heaps and I'm not only talking about the students...save it travis ..actually they are even older than 16 na jokes that was like 2 years ago..ricies maybe 1 anyway

well I think thats it...thinking....still thinking...suitcases that are locked to the wall and jeans that were locked but Brett must have picked the lock and tried them on...Nolan what are you doing home?...so guitars this week Brett..thats great...your closet with the bmx, skateboard hat and tennis racket is getting empty..hahaha

brett thank you...

alana opens up the present.....spam..what am I gonna do with this? Hey James can I borrow your weezer cd ricies

what do you call a dear with no eyes-------no eye dear

and what do you call a dear with no eyes and no legs....still no eye dear

hes off