It's completely complicated and unexpected / If you've ever experienced a time in your life when you've much to say, but nothing peices together into words that you can / you're sitting next to me

The longer that you hold back the cloud / The harder it rains

Today in pictures:

Now seems like the perfect time to break into my prelude to Korea. Missy Peregrym runs through my mind one more time; this time I realize that I've been busted. I get right into it.

I've become victim to the system. It's 5 on 2 off, broken down into 8 to 5. Draining weeks with a quick re-wind on the weekend, until eventually I snap; In the midst of changing seasons and times for a number of us, I will journey off into oblivion. Two hours it will take to get to America, half the time that I will have to wait, before getting on a flight 893 to Seoul. 12 hours in a limited space with unkown possibilities.

Suspense has clouded my view, and for 19 days, I'll escape.

I'm traveling alone, but my mate, Josh ,  has already been touring Asia for 11 days when I arrive, and we meet in Seoul. Hong Kong for 4 days, Thailand for 5, Malaysia for 2, Korea for 6, and Japan for 4... After reading that again Josh I'm running through my mind with possibilities of you and Scot in Thailand. A Coup they are calling it. I just called your wife though, and she said you are fine. And it's a good thing you are too. Thoughts of me not having my best man at my wedding in two weeks, had Nervous asking Suspense to step aside.

My departure is coming in less then 26 hours, and I'm leaving it with that. Below is some random media from the last few weeks of living. I'm not just talking about breathing Oxygen. I'm talking about the dream. So it continues.

Before you know it the excitement of first steps has died down. Even the talking now doesn't raise a smile. Come to think of it, that smile is getting harder and harder,no matter what you do. It's a changing moment and you're 20. You've outlined a few goals and the like, and with everyday that passes you get closer to your deadline, and further it seems from your goal. 5 years to go, which doesn't even sound like much if you say it as 1825 days. You know how fast the last weeks and months have passed. Even years heck. And you're busying yourself counting down the 13 meager days that stand in your way before you depart to Korea. Has all that time really come and gone?

It is such a simple concept, see for yourself:

She has of course been busted already, but thankfully we still have okgo treadmill and backyard dance videos to fuel the internet addiction. Ok, okgo isn't quite as cute as 19 year old Jessica Rose , (From New Zealand), apparently they've got a talented choreographer though. sp?

I recently downloaded a couple of new cd's. Christina Aguilera - Back to Basics, Outkast - IdleWild , not a bad couple of listens. But wtf. Who is Kastavol Medina and Shikara Franklin and Cammy Simpson, could they get off her leg for a minute. What is with artists making songs like that anyways? At the moment there is two songs that sum me up: Moist - Resurrection & Stabilo - Flawed Design.

My camera just came in for Korea, and a few scams later, It's pretty bawling. Canon sd30. Attached is a pic, also a couple pics taken with it at the office. One of my desk, and another of my boss. Then comes a couple "greasy" pics of me, with my old camera. (Rest in Peace)... Here we go. September thus far summed.

Movies.

Sure. Recently I've watched an assortment of movies, but I'm only going to talk about one. Or two rather. Basic Instinct & Basict Instinct 2. Rather then write out a movie summary(ies). I'll copy one from somewhere's else, as I'm sure they'll have done a better job then I could...

Former rock star and San Francisco nightclub owner Johnny Boz is found murdered in his bed. Detective Nick Curran is assigned to the case; he has a history of alcoholism and drug abuse although he is clean now. The prime suspect is Catherine Tramell, an attractive and manipulative novelist who had been seeing Boz for a while. Police psychiatrist Beth Gardner (who happens to be Nick's ex-girlfriend) is brought in on the case when it is discovered that Boz's murder was copied directly from one of Catherine's novels. Nick starts to get too involved and everyone seems to be a suspect.

I suppose Sharon stone is pretty bawling in both movies, but more impressive is the clever story lines, and especially the twist at the end of Basic Instinct 2. Even more impressive then all of that is Sharon Stone - 4. I'm pretty sure. No. In fact. I'm positive that when I'm 48 I won't look that good.

They Spyker that they feature at the beginning of the movie is pretty bawling as well.(It's the car in the last pic below)

Nothing ever stays the way that you want it to, for as long as you would like it to. Don't try to be a wise guy and think around it, as I've never met anyone who cheated death. "In this world nothing can be said to be certain, except death and taxes." Considering I cheated taxes last year, maybe it is possible to cheat death? Actually.. I would like to see you line up at heavens gate with a book full of reciepts, and expenses, and ask God look over your write-offs. Maybe it is possible.

It's confusing to me why all the hate. Eventually all the running around that you do will catch up to you, and the opportunity missed, or the things said will cause you to regret. Rather then think much of it, I put my name on the early z's list, and head to the mountains after a very good talk about adultery. Nothing generates attention like controversy. Attention. Traffic. That and a few more nsfw pictures , and I'll have a business.

The first chapter is called "Genesis," named after the rock group with the same name (the author was a huge Phil Collins fan). Then comes "Exodus," and in no time we have plagues, sacrifices, miracles, and holy wars all over the place. There's so much blood, gore, and sex, that we're surprised that the thing hasn't been banned by one of those moralistic groups that are always trying to ban something. - SYW - Ten Most Popular Books

Yes You Are

Now I don't want to pretend that it's any better than it is, but considering it's a nice day, and although I do have myself stuck inside, I'm still enjoying it with Anthony Kiedis. He's put together alot of nice songs that talk about Californication, - Beverly hills, and Then Dani. Also California. All of California aside, he does have a great voice. I'm nervous saying that, because I've heard alot of people say that Paris Hilton has a good voice lately. Are the stars blind or is it us? Too many people thought they were jumping on the band (->), but ended up on the wagon? And I'm a little bit confused as to why Justin Timberlake thinks that he's bringing Sexy Back. I know that especially Paris would argue, that it's been there all along, and doesn't he realize that Lance Bass just came out of the closet. Justin, you should either be writing songs about all those road trips together, or taking Lance to see Brokeback mountain.

All this excitement and I just polished a read through: "Information for Landlords and Tenants", I suppose if you're going to play both sides of the game, you better be well read. A quick study this guy. That's what they're saying around the office? I've got a trunk full of stuff, or rather Josh does, and it isn't long before I'll be lurking around the airport. Today is the 18th, as to not get confused with my Korea departure. I am practicing though, which would be another reason for the confusion.

Whether you get on your bicycle, scooter, or pet rock, you worry, you worry, you worry. Wait, Nolan? didn't you just write about that? Busted. And I'm not talking about Brett at 3am in the net cafe, or Thailand massage parlor. Here it is Billy Joe.

Green-Day: She

I was hoping to have this site ready to go by the end of the month, but with recent endeavors my socks are a little lower than I would like, and I will have the next level ready by the time I depart for Korea. If you're wondering what's up with this site, and why I'm doing it, and not onto myspace, or nexopia, or the like, it's simple because I can. And if I can, I can probably also make a good de-throning run at least locally, and if not I'll post a few more pictures of Paris Hilton and hope for some traffic.

It's going down the directon of it's competitors, with journals/blogs, media galleries, profiles, friends and the rest, but by making everything unlimited, and by offering users individual looking homepages, rather than profile sites, I think it will catch onto a niche of users that like the idea of having their own looking site. I've made it easy to do. You too, can even Buy a domain, www.lifebyme.com or www.nolanfyfe.com. It's all and more to come in the next few weeks.

I did win a debut mile on Tuesday. I'm talking about four laps broken up with a shaken beer. Russle you monkey. 7:13. Matt, you're going to have to try a little bit harder if you want to beat me, either that or just start training harder.

The last movie I saw worth talking about: V for Vendetta - Natalie Portman ( Did you know she was born in Jerusalem, which makes me actually twice as excited to see her movie Free Zone )

Last Song I heard worth talking about: Evanescence - Call me when you're sober

Last Book I Read worth talking about: The Perfect Mile - I can only pretent probably for about to be a junky, and it probably has more to do with the Houson sun, or that it's actually the only book I read that i can remember. Ok, that's not true. Lovelocke, and Lord of the Flies.

Last joke I heard worth re-telling: How do you tell if an asian has robbed your house?
Your homework is done, your computer is upgraded, and two hours later he's still in your driveway trying to back out.

last foreign language I spoke: Korean - "Sa Rung Hae" - I'm in love (I better be prepared right?)

Last Good quote I read: "Life isn't about finding who you are, it's about creating who you will be." - From Anthony

"I always thought it was better to be a fake somebody, than a real nobody", Nice Try Mr. Ripley.

Actually just one. And it's to Korea.Travel Dates of September 27th to October 16th. Nights of strung out on confusion has left an empty feeling in my stomach and in my heart. Late Nights and early mornings, with new plans, and sites. T-Shirts being printed and things are coming together.

Whether you beleive in the big guy upstairs or not, this is an inspiring video that my mate sent me today.

Follow the link and on the homepage, select "View Presentation". It's about a minute long and has some good points about life.

http://www.theinterviewwithgod.com/

I know you've been waiting. Days have passed, and you have counted them down, as has Anthony. Birthdays have come and now gone, but there is still dates in the future that are eagerly anticipated. Pulsradio sets the mood, and I think about what it would be like if you were here. I also think about what it would be like had you called me. Or what it would have been like had I the courage to talk to you. Let alone the little hand just touched the one, and that's not a stab at michael. That's just a. ricies.

There is something inside Ryan. Something that you have been waiting to say. As you build up the courage to say it, it comes out. It does. But it's in a language that you can't even understand. Someone better pinch you, and quickly because you're speaking the hell croation, and the look on your face, and your accent is making it look and sound normal. Quick Pinch me. There is less then a week remaining to get the watermellon and pizza ready.

Two days counted down quickly. And at first what seemed like a silly idea turned into smooth legs, and now I'm unaware of which is which and what is right. Unaware leaves the restless feeling, and thank goodnes you took pictures galore, and are going to be able to stablize them tomorrw when at the moment everything is coming down around you.

Feelings of tired lurk, and loudly at that. Shrugging it off it's easy to reminisce about all that has taken place in the last hours, days, months, and years. You've covered your eyes and your ears for long enough. Boo. Open. Ricies. It's go time. With my new legs, comes a Joshua, and a 1/2 Duplex. As fast at hairstyles, times change, and if you aren't on the ship, you're definitly on the anchor. Either way you should be holding your breath, and wondering what is coming next.

It's evident that something is changing. It's taking place inside others, and inside yourself. It's no secret that you are blind to the outside, but inside it's Crystal. and Slim if you win. Wait. Where did you go? La jeu fini. Korean Ryan. practice. Not french.

When I look into the past it's hard to not, but looking around at the present, selfishly I still can't. Surroundings or somethings. Posession I know is going to change that as will reality. I talked about it actually alot tonight. You weren't specifically mentioned but if someone was keeping tabs on all of the times explicitly. Hollywood.

I can't even say that I'm angry. Actually that would be an outright lie, as I am. But at the same time, money saved is money earned.? and holding hands with saving is time, and time almost wins. Pegs not get involved with time, when it it's so clear, and it's sitting right in front. As you go through a time like this, you'll catch some more sun. You'll workout, you'll run, which will leave people wondering whether this is just a quick faze as you work through your chemistry lessons, or whether this is a real deal, and you're setting yourself up for Post-DSI. If that is the case, mate, you're behind two protein shakes. I can wait though. Patience. Don't remind me. Virtue right? Thanks pops. Oh Shoot. Christina Aguilera better switch me chairs.

 http://www.enterinside.com/anthony/gallery/60/162/

 Two years has quickly passed, and now with two months of contract polished I'm in my last two days of whitening. Two. Actually no three, and that is the number of days I am counting down until the Nelly Furtado Concert. Brett - Random to think that you and I ripped up the Stampede last year, Swollen Members, Sum 41, Fefe Dobson, That kareoke and of course Nelly Furtado.

You'll be proud of the repeat I have going, 151 and all. Although sorry mate, I won't be soiling my pants, throwing up in bed, or waking up on a subway wondering wtf am I doing here.

With both Germany and Brazil knocked out the world cup, it might not be the world cup final that alot of people were expecting. France and Portugal are still to play to qualify for the final, but after France defeated Brazil, I'm with them for the cup. It is football though, and in one game anything can happen.

A todo list in the making, leaves me wondering what I'm going to be doing after work today. * Checks the weather one more time. * Verifies that it's still 30.. Plans a swim and a bbq. A raft with a quiet night on friday, and ready with game faces on Saturday.