| | Journaling in the a.m. | PermaLink - Oct 7, 2005
2 a m rolls around and I'm the only one online. Online, and msn handles, and random e- stuff is common talk these days. Who would have thought .com jokes would turn out to be funny? Or what about being in a conversation and slipping with acronyms 'lol', or 'wtf'.
One thing that is commonplace, but almost depressing is that we spend our whole lives waiting. Agree or Disagree? When I look at me life, everything is for the next. I'm not going to go as far as to say that I don't enjoy today, because that would make terrible tuesdays a week long event. But Today for tomorrow, and tomorrow for the next. What does that say? Wired or Programmed? Interesting. Little examples, are like tanning today, for a tan tomorrow, ricies. Bigger would be years in school for employment, and then years of employment, for retirment.... Relating yet? K, don't be shy I already know about your Fabutan membership.
I don't like how "What goes around comes around" is actually true. Like the same thing that I did a year ago, I can now feel coming back around to me. When you see something that is good, are you just supposed to wait like a sitting duck, or do you grab ahold of the opportunity. Eminem might have some advice for you. Is life about taking advantage of opportunities? I'm not putting my hand up because I think life is about making opportunities. Too many people sit around waiting for opportunities to come their way, when ambition, the lack of it, is preventing them from making their own. Of course the other is true, that you have to take advantage as well, but that's for the secondary. | | Belief, Opinion, Pride, Expectation | PermaLink - Oct 3, 2005
Jessica Alba Big screen, then addicted to Fergie's voice. Is that possible? - Not to get addicted to a voice, but to have such a good night?
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Belief, Opinion, Pride, Expectation
None of us can predict the future, but we can choose which paths that we take. What's the big deal with people expecting you to do what everyone else does? Mathew says that there are two paths. One more travelled and one less travelled. You think people would be excited for you to do something different. Belief. So your a bum when you go your own way, but then suddenly your succesful when you make something of yourself.
It's that Dollar, it talks soo loudly these days. It's distracting. Like your trying to keep things low profile, but it's turning up the volume with "Black or White" on. Your parents want you to be quiet. And It's not like the knocking on the door stops either; With increased success comes increased responsibility. Apparently we're not running around the Fort Saskatchewan Mall with ripped Ninja Turtle sweat pants anymore. By that I mean kids. - and that's not a cheap stab at Michael
It's not like your thoughts have any weight, leave me alone. We all, always, have something to say about everything. Opinion. Why is it that some people are more stuck on theirs than others. Why do they feel like they have to push it on you? Keep it in the closet. You've got life no further figured out than anyone else; However when most of us look at our lives we do think that we've got it all figured out. Amazing how most of us aren't even in the drivers seat. Nobody likes different, until different becomes good. What about being happy for others with where they are at? Money even talks at a time like this. Who said money couldn't buy happiness? Tell that to someone who is hungry. Is happiness having a full stomach? Ricies.
Don't stop till you get enough, it's Human Nature: We exploit everything, until we either fall, or realize that it doesn't matter how much we have that it will never be enough. Pride. Sadly, that will keep alot of us going even after we come to that understanding.
Who is the man in the mirror. Do you remember the time when you looked in the mirror and saw yourself. I was told early in grade school that people are a reflection of eachother. Expectations Is that why are minds are full of what other people want from us? Why do we always measure ourself against the success and failures of others. What do you think we would look like if we were alone. Would Hair Gel have been invented? What about Nail Polish? Would people know who Louis Vuitton is? What about Versace? Actually I doubt it and I think Louis and Gianni would have to find new jobs.
How did 2 Men and a Microphone get on here? | | What the future holds | PermaLink - Sep 28, 2005
He's in the middle of filming a movie. I'm not even behind the camera. I'm just there with money of my own, interested in making a film of my own. Then I found out that he just broke up with her, the tear turns into a rip, and next minute can't fall back asleep.
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I've now been home for 3 days. After moving rooms, and setting up a new computer, I've strapped my goggles back on, and have started to work again. It's hard to really make sense out of all that has happened in the last fews months, especially weeks. Who could have predicted that I'd wind up in Panama?
- Alot has happened since I road the bus to school for 2 hours everyday in grade 3.
I've been working to get pictures and video up. (I wish Apple and Windows would play nicer together).
Here are some links and descriptions to some of the video's that I just finished putting up.
 | Final Video compilation of all video and pictures from my trip to Bocas Del Toro, Panama. The beginning section is a photo slideshow mostly. The end contains a nice pan of Panama City and part of the Canal from the Airplane. | | A few times a week I taught a random bunch of students english. Pretty funny these classes. | | This kind of stuff just never happens in America. I'll never forget the Salamander Experience. Funny trying to figure out what to do in situations like this. | | 3 days into Panama Experiences. A bit of a Pan around my apartment(also see pictures) | | I was taken on a tour into the inner city sections of Panama City. Pretty Gheto these sections. |
It looks like I'll be back in Panama in the New Year. This time it looks like I won't be going solo. That'll be a new experience.
- Check out the pictures and videos. Panama is a very neat country.(Am I getting old too?)
Ryan | | La Dernier Jeur | PermaLink - Sep 24, 2005
So alot of questions, and there is this wind and rain in the Southern part of the states which might be making this not my last day in Panama.Why are all hurricanes named after women?
- When they come they are wet and wild, and when they leave they take your house and car.
Have you heard of divorced Barbie?
- ring. ring. ok Nick I get the point
I feel like I was ricied throughout my entire trip, and I handled it with a red face. With no complaints though, I'm calling it experience.
A few memories would be:- My grandparents surprising me at the airport
- A 7yr old kid locked inside of a cage
- Primary School Teachers' aids
- The Best (now say it in French)
- Late Night Losing the Plot when credit turns sour
- Or what about Good Credit and stretch marks?
- Not taking Malaria pills, and then a trip to Bocas
- Billy´s business talks, Mosquito bites, and the night of the missing camera
- Solo days of shopping, actually solo days of everything
- Jesus Talks with Cab Drivers
- Internet Cafe Experiences - webcams and pornography
| | Bad credit | PermaLink - Sep 21, 2005
Everyday; the same day. Everyday falling asleep with a fan on and no ac. Then ac comes on in the morning with a timer, and then I find myself waking up in Elementary, and covering myself with a sheet.
Last night I think was one of the funniest and most controversial nights I've had since being in panama. I was busy talking about the world's, and how they'd be ricied if I decided to make a run for it. The night became memorable when the one guy showed me his gun. Apparently It doesn't matter how "vite je peux courir maintenant". I'd have to say that I had alot of fun with the situation. Something you would see on a movie, and I was doing it just for my own laugh. I would spill it, but I can't.
Shakira, huh. I'll give it to you, you are beunito, and I guess you did deserve the last laugh. Well what you thought was the last laugh. You missed out on me getting escorted across town by the men in black, so I still think that I had the last one. The night only gets funnier, with a taxi ride. Cab drivers, always trying to scam you for the extra dollar. unlike most times, this guy was making me really mad; I lost it in french, using words like Criminal, and Satan. After I had mind punched him a few times, and I could tell he was getting uncomfortable, I counted my losses, and got out.
What I still can't figure out though, is that it had the makings to be such a good night, and then it ends abruptly with a fight and an empty wallet. Kind of like a last minute uncomfortable kick. Although I'm out of my comfort zone I at least figured out what business I need to get into. Funny that before said that, I already knew how to make it happen. Actually I'm already in that business, just on the wrong side of it.
"You'll never make it Pre", "Your too short Pre", "Go Home, Pre" | | Leaving the Island | PermaLink - Sep 20, 2005
Don´t get me wrong, I don´t think that it´s correct any where, but shiba. Why is there someone looking at Pornography sitting beside me in the internet cafe?? ---- Today is my last day in Bocas. Last hour actually. I´ve had some random events happen in the last 24 hours like, new roommates, missing cellphones, single walks on the beach, re-pulling the muscle in my stomach, and now horny kids sitting next to me. Shiba. After checking out today I came back to help my roommate, Billy, try to find his cellphone. Apparently it was stolen though, but a guest he had over the night before. Not to go into details, but lets just say that I was Colter. Or wait. Or was I Jordan trying to make my own angles. Na save both of them. I was getting into Cruel Intentions, and Cold Mountain. ´Wait, I didn´t remember this scene being in the movie last time´ Couldn´t be stuffed eating chicken and rice for breakfast again, so had a yugo juice and some pancakes, not bad yeah. I caught a boat over to one of the other islands, Bastimento, where the main beaches is. One side of the island is houses, and little restaurants,etc. The middle is a hill, and you have to walk over it to the other side where the beach is. I´m not going to lie and say that it wasn´t beautiful, or that I didn´t enjoy the dip in the ocean. I just really wasn´t getting into it. Was all of this traveling solo stuff getting to me. Na, not that. Maybe just slipping on the log, and pulling that stupid muscle in my stomach again, had me feeling pretty average andy. I´m not back on the main Isla Colon, and catch my flight to Panama City in an hour. Ah Finally back home. More like Apartment C. So Greg is still in the Carribean. I feel like I´m getting ricied by him. He´s talking about meeting foreign girls, and hands, and singing and dancing. Na; completely different experiences, and good for the both of us. I think a little bit you could get off your dad´s leg though. Whatever keeps your tent up. um. wait.. Whatever floats your boat might be a bit more appropriate. | | Rainy days | PermaLink - Sep 19, 2005
I hate the idea of being in an internet cafe with a sore back on this monday just as much as the guy typing next to me. But that is what happens when your beach trip gets rained out, and you start the day eating chicken and rice for breakfast, and not knowing what else to do. Billy my roommate is sleeping, and I´m starting to buzz out about the next year, and then next thing I know I find myself journaling. Now if only they could turn down the a/c and let me use a standard keyboard.
I´ve been getting drilled like crazy here about life, and what it means to have and not to have. Everyone knows this but it´s something that we never really talk about that much. (well maybe you do, and I just missed it). But here are some random things.- How ever much you have you always think, îf I just had twice this much, I´d be comfortable
- Those who have the most and can afford to be the most generous, give the least
- We spend our entire lives trying to acquire things, that we can´t take with us.
- Opportunity is garaunteed
- How much time we spend wanting what someone else has, or to be like them
- Life isn´t made to be understood, in yet we all think that we have it figured out.
Taxi´s here aren´t metered, instead they charge you based on a zone system. So first zone is a dollar, and next one is 50cents. One thing about being a foreigner, is that people are going to try to take advantage of you. So I hop in a cab and say 1.50 to Multicentro. and he says no, dos dollaires, I said no, uno dollaire, cinqaunte. He said no, and I got out, and got the next one, who said si to a dollar 50. When I got there, I gave him two dollars. Does that make sense? I have no problems with the two dollars, but hate feeling taken advantage of.
If you don´t mind Chitre´s, and everyone wanting to sell you something, this isn´t a bad part of the world to be in. It´s booming tourist industry, is making it a great place to invest. I´m going to flag it though, and stick to Panama city. I fly out of here either tomorrow or the next day. Haven´t quite decided yet, and will see what the weather is up to.
- Joey | | Bocas feelings | PermaLink - Sep 18, 2005
I´ve been in Bocas for a little over a day now. Honestly not really all that sure how I like it. It´s real cruisy, but I don´t like how it´s like third world here, and then tourists with money. Everyone, everywhere seems to be trying to get something from you; or maybe just from my friend. What started out as a random talk in the airport, has turned into a roommate. I went on boat tour around a bit of the area today. Was more of a local one, and not touristy. Can´t say that I minded that, but rude hikes, and getting covered in these painfully annoying little buys didn´t really do it for me I guess. I´ve taken enough photos here to make National Geographic gelous. the photo´s and reality part could really take of here. After all this is real isn´t it. It´s really ghetto here, like one main drag that is not bad, one side stree which is not bad, and the rest is pretty brutal. There are alot of cute babies here, and alot of Kodak Moments, ricies. I should cruz and see what´s going on for the night. Paka or is that Adios? | | Senor Frogs | PermaLink - Sep 16, 2005
Clean Shave. Why? It worked for you last night. Yeah and last night for good American dollars I also looked like brad Pitt, and had the cutest accent.(Well it was french, wasn't it). Those french girls... Now. Sneaking out of Aparment C. Trying to avoid neighbors, or the Boa's Ryan? I'm actually not to keen to see either of them right now. Ryan. I didn't know that 3 mohawks were in Style? Yeah it's probably not, not like everyone with black hair here is going notice. Another Ant, and where is my taxi? o.k. your back back now. Senor Frog's was closed. At the other place I'm really curious to find out whether you stood on top there because of confidence or because of language, or because you just couldn't be stuffed. - To answer that question I'm going to first have to say confidence. definitately not in the most bawling of places right now; Then I'm going to have to say research. Does that say C . O. R. ONA on the back of her shorts? Wait those aren't shorts, and why is she wearing cowboy pants, the kind that I'd expect to see at Tequila, or cowboys? I'm not really sure. but she definately was cuter than both of those places. Well obviously. She is latin american, isn't she. Panamanian? Now that I can't be sure about. I'm finding out that alot of them are from Colombia.... Good day with the googles on yesterday. best in a while. Only more motivation for low pro Oct, Nov, Dec. These Frozen mango Juices are quite a treat., you ought to try them! I guess drugs are a bit of a problem here in Panama city and Panama in general. Alot of drug trafficking, mostly from Columbia -> North. I hadn't seen any of it until tonight. With my original place being closed, i was stuck sorting myself out. next minute I've got a guy using words like Coka, and marijuana, with me. Tu parle le francais? Well then I've got not idea what your talking about! Cover charge here is actually really dear. like tonight was 7usd, but can be up to 10. that's steep. Won't complain about 5cdn anymore. So what about that Dinar. Or wait is it Denaro? Actually, righty now I'm talking about Dinar. Nolan? Josh? or do I have to make all the decisions around here? So very random, and very proving that panama is a good place to come back to. Infrustructure? - Costa Rica: Pegs not ; Panama - Best in S.A., Costs and all that other fun stuff. Panama as well. Chika, well aparently they are all here anyways. Now just about the spanish part. o.k. Rosetta I'm coming. | | Lonely Planet Panama | PermaLink - Sep 15, 2005
I was told the first day but, I had forgotten so it wasn't bother me; Apparently there is big snakes kicking around where my apartment is. Poisonous. After hearing about them all night, I find myself darting through the walkway, and watching my step. Shiba.
I've been getting into wearing tight shirts, to hold my stomach in. Is that a Hernia Ryan, or are you just happy to see me. Shiba. wakeboarding, and Arial maneouvres, and then bumps on my stomach that are making my feel a bit nervous. It was settling down not bad, but then I had to run in the rain. I guess I could have walked yesterday to meet the lawyer. In Panama it's culture to dress well to show people, especially authority, that you respect them. Imagine another few minutes in the rain, in that meeting with lawyers. Could I have felt like anymore of a kid, when talking about starting investing money and starting companies. Sorry Fernandez. Next time in panama, I'll remember my shirt and tie.
Most things are cheaper here. Like if you buy import, well it's a bit less then I would say something in America would be. If you buy local like 50%. For example. Heineken, 1$ comapered to 40cents for local. I've been having some good feeds here thanks to other foreigners who have been kind. Is the new joke going to be, "feeding Ryan". I hope so. My stomach would sure be appreciative of that. Wait, maybe that lump isn't from wakeboarding.
I didn't really do much of anything today. Mostly random yawns, and research. I'm like 1 day a way here from planning my trip up North. I'm probably going to go to Bocas Del Toro or David. Flights are cheap around the island here. Like 40$ one way. It would be like the equivalant of flying Edmonton - > Calgary. Hotels for 10$ a night, and days at the beach, in the place where they filmed Survivor Panama. Um as soon as you show me the dotted line, I'll sign. Nolan, you can have the laugh, I've borrowed the Lonely Planet Panama, and we'll be becoming mates here. Here I'm just writing Kenna to get some advice on how to use it. haha.
There is funny ants here. Alot more impressive then your average ant back home. I tired washing one down the sink today for about a minute before he finally gave up. There is this funny little Panama plaque that I've been using to sqaush them with. whoops.
I don't think I can say that I've ever gone out in Edmonton by myself. 80 cents later and I've done it a few times here now. Just hop in a taxi for a $, and say disco, or Calle Uruguay, I haven't had any bad cab experiences. Normally they are really good, like the last time, the guy drove me around down town helping my find a place that wasn't dead. Well it was Monday Ryan you monkey. Tonight when I say salsa I'm not talking about something I had on my soft taco's for dinner (thanks Grace). I'll probably be from Belgium tonight. Parlais vous le Francais?
From top: Le Chateau, Guess, and Adidas, It's bawling. And what about David Beckham. I keep running into him everywhere. Propoganda Galore, between Pepsi and Adidas, and who knows what else. I'm starting to get a bit concerned when I keep seeing you on posters with Destiny's Child. You've already got a Spice Girl. Now I know that Brad Pitt just did it, but there is no need for you follow in his footsteps. I guess people like football here or something? That's soccer to you. Bloddy America. What makes more sense? Soccer being called football, or football being called soccer. hmm.
So Sadness, it's a relateable topic for me. What about these:
"We enjoy warmth because we have been cold. We appreciate light because we have been in darkness. By the same token, we can experience joy because we have known sadness. "
"The walls we build around us to keep sadness out also keeps out the joy."
"I love my past. I love my present. I'm not ashamed of what I've had, and I'm not sad because I have it no longer."
At 2 cents a minute to use this dial up connection I better hurry up. Wait, ryan, your writing this offline. whoops. Then looking at my watch I realize it is quarter to 11, and then that I'm hoping to make it to Avenida 5 a sur at a decent time. That's Senor Frogs, Panama. Franchising, yeah; there is a bit of that here.
I think my favorite new thing is "Poquito Denaro", but even just simply "Buenos", and "Salida" are up there. |
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