| Solitude or Loneliness |
| Your the same person that had me holding foreign hands last night. Was it you that wanted me to, or was it me that asked her to dance? Na, you can't try to tell me that I saw this coming. Here I am, in over my head, and you just keep justifying it for me. I'm looking at my operators liscense and you know what is going through my mind, you know that if I wanted to I could pull it off. You can stop looking double-faced at me. You know that I can't decide. -------- Ryan. Who is Pixi? Is Jen really your girlfriend? Why did you keep telling that girl last night that you were in love with baseball? Why is your Visa maxed? And why are you spending your last 50$ to re-book your flight for tomorrow? - It's a funny thing this life, and I know that as soon as I get home, we're going to have to sit down and have a talk with eachother. You'll be looking at me straight in the eyes, while I'll look the other way. Actually I'm not coming home tomorrow, and haven't touched my visa. Except for you It was a good night. Getting around in Panama with you giving me looks and making me feel vulnerable. I've got a clean visa, but you in Panama City can do that. Crossroads; And we're a funny breed. Especially you in America. Then you start popping up all over. Canada, Belgium, New Zealand, Panama. We're all the same. And I know you; Before you even think about it, you would argue. You've always been like that. I don't want to feel good about it, but I'm not sure that it's my responsibility to feel bad about it either. Why should I? I don't really want to play your game, but your not giving me a choice. What one part of me desires, part of me fears. If simplicity is all we think it is, why are we all working so hard to lead such complicated lives. We're afraid of being alone. It's tv, it's msn, it's gossip. Is that part of us Fate or Chance? Was the apple? What about you? All the things that I just thought about. Do you think I could do them all? Not enough time, or badly managed time? Do we die when we are born? Talk to me for a moment about Credit Cards, Bad haircuts, and Slk's? One minute kids, next minute kids. How does Alrya fit into this? You took her. Does that answer your question? |
